Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Usually this is soooo exciting for me, but this year I have been apprehensive because on this same trip one year ago we had an accident on the river that scared me. God was with us and protected us, but now I am really nervous and scared. I don't like feeling like this. I know it's wrong. I am worrying and fretting instead of trusting God. I pray that the Lord will be with us and protect us. I pray that I can calm down and trust Him.
Well, it's time for bed. I sure hope I will sleep good, I have been so nervous being back on this river after the accident last year. I hate to admit it, but I have been a bit on edge and moody. What has added even more to my fear is sadly, a friend of mine's cousin drowned on this very river just three weeks ago. He was only 27 years old, the same age as Mackenzie. He was trying to swim across the river and didn't make it. I broke my heart, I felt so bad for his wife and children who were on the shore and for his mother and father. I have been praying for their family.
That incident combined with what happened to us last year gave me an irrational fear. It's a fear that the enemy is putting there. I know God does not want me to live in fear, but it's strange how it comes over you sometimes and you can't control it. I have been praying and reading scripture. I know God is with us, but I do have fear.
We have a big day on the river tomorrow I better get some shut eye! Goodnight!
Come back this evening at 5:30 PM and you can read about our second day on the river and then tomorrow morning at 5:30 AM to read about our last day.
"I will lie down in peace and sleep, for You alone, O Lord, will keep me safe." Psalm 4:4