Monday, July 18, 2011
You see, last weekend we floated the Umpqua River in drift boats and camped along the banks of the river for two nights. I was very afraid because we did this same trip last year and we had an accident (click here to read the full story). My youngest son and his friend were rowing a boat and they hit that rock that you can see kind of in the back of the picture to the right and it caused their boat to flip over. The boys realized that the boat was flipping, so they jumped out and they were fine, but the boat actually sunk and was drug under the water many feet and ended up getting wedged between some big boulders under about 10 feet of water. It took us over an hour to finally retrieve the boat and it was very scary.
I knew at the time that God was protecting us and I was so very grateful. I was so very, very grateful and thankful. I also knew that from my history, I was going to be a mess the next time we would float this part of the river. I knew that I would be frozen with fear. I avoided thinking about it all year round and as we started talking about the annual Umpqua camp trip in June, feelings of worry started emerging. It really got bad the night before we left; I could not sleep and when I did sleep, I had nightmares about it.
God did protect us and we did not have any accidents or even any near misses. I am truly grateful to the Lord and I will be posting pictures from our trip soon. I just wanted to let all of you know what was bugging me last week and I want to confess my lack of faith and that I gave into my worry. I don't want to be a worrier. I just can't help it, it sweeps over me. I know that this is an area I really need to work on and with God's help, I believe I can conquer it.
"Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God." Philippians 4:6
"Thank God in everything, for this is the will of God for you who are in Christ Jesus." I Thessalonians 5:18
~ In Him, Sharon